Thursday, December 31, 2009

Why is it so difficult to be ordinary?

Recent comment by one of my friend upsetted me for one full day. You must be thinking that the comment must had been real bad, but naa it was just a passing statement ‘You girls are all same’. I retaliated to this statement by not talking to him for some time but now when I have forgiven the sinner, by restarting the conversation, I thought what the big deal about it was. Is it really that bad to be counted as one of the millions of girls or I should say is it really bad to be counted as ordinary. I have met so many people in last couple of years and sometimes to increase my listening power I make people speak about themselves and just hear them, their thoughts about themselves, as per my experience if you give one chance to people to talk about themselves, 90% of them will try to tell the quality that they poses that is different from others. Is this single quality help us stand out the crowd or the just imagination of standing out the crowd make us develop this habit. I remember in my childhood I used to wear watch in my right hand and when all others wore it in left, why?, just to show I am different. Although I stopped wearing watch in right side, not because I stopped thinking myself different but because it was far more comfortable to have it in left rather then on the right side, but I still want to do something that makes me different. Why is the human mind wants to prove infact the question should be, what is it that human mind wants to prove to others. Its ironical that its more painful to see yourself being able to sustain in day-to-day life like an ordinary person and being able to feed your family and kids like an ordinary person does. Sometimes I think that either I should be on the top or should be out of this rat race. I think it is easier and satisfying to fight to be different then being ordinary. In this short span of our lives we fight to be different, to do something ‘alag’ but forget the moments that we miss in between. This fight is unending; I wanted to work in ‘different’ city so landed in Mumbai, once I am here then I am an ‘ordinary’ Mumbaite, to get rid of this ordinary tag I fight to purchase a house and once I am a proud owner of a house in a costly city like Mumbai, then I realize that I have entered the category of ‘ordinary house owner’ in Mumbai and so I fight to purchase a car and the fight continues. I think its Ambani-level or SRK-level we are fighting for and only one or two in millions make it to this level so rest 999998 people land in category called ordinary. Is it really that bad to be in this category? I still don’t have a ‘satisfying’ answer to this question but today as I close another yearly chapter and say bye-bye to 2009, I hope that 2010 will bring new answers to ever increasing and unending hunger of human mind.

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